Is just coffee...right?

I am extremely awkward. I create intense dramatic situations for myself without really thinking them through. Then when the created moment is approaching, I usually panic and want to escape. I opened a really large can of worms yesterday. I asked an old flame to coffee. AHHH!!! I mean it was totally breezy. I had to pick up a friend from the airport and thought it would be a great idea to have coffee with Flame. We haven't talked in over 2 years and things ended badly on my part, sounds like a great idea right.

The plan was to meet at 6:00 p.m. at the local Starbucks. I hoped I would get there first since I have issues with exiting my car. I didn't want to pull a Britt Britt and show the goods. I pull in and thank god he wasn't there. I go inside order my coffee and wait. I decide it should look like I'm doing something while I wait, something smart. I mosey over to the newspaper stand pick up a paper and make the interested face as I fake read. You know the one. I glanced up through the window and see him drive up. I look back down at the paper now giving the, this is VERY interesting fake face. My coffee is up, onto the creamer bar. I see him walking up and I look down and start stirring my coffee very vigorously. When am I supposed to make eye contact, I am giving this WAY too much thought. Flame rolls in wearing some cute duds and a flashes me his famous smile. We hugged and it was nice.

I had about two hours to kill. Flame and I chatted it up and there were only two awkward moments. Awkward #1 I say how airport friend is in love and meeting up with her "soul mate" while she is in town. Bad idea..Flame definitely thought I was his soul mate at one point in history and expressed this to me. Flame made some inappropriate joke and I rolled my eyes. Awkward #2 I decided to mention that airport friend didn't think it was a good idea that we were meeting up. Flame looked straight at me and agreed. OUCH.

Fast forward another uncomfortable 20 minutes and it was time for me to get out. He walked me to my car. Now here's where it gets interesting. Not sure what is really going on..not really sure what this whole coffee experience was about. We go in for the hug, my head turned to the left (totally normal), his head, straight on. Now I don't know if he was going in for the kill, but I got really nervous and just did the like friend back tap hug. He then scampered off to his truck.

Hmmmm.........what just happened.

Followed up the coffee "thing" the today with a lil' text, "Hi (smiley face) thanks for meeting me, it was really good to see you. Hope I wasn't too awkward (smiley face)."

For future reference one smiley face would have been sufficient. And why did I apologize for being awkward. Smooth.